Jealousy

Its hard not to compare kids.  I know, its silly, kids will be kids and do things at their own pace.  I know, they all even out in a few years and who would know that my daughter didn't walk until she was 14 months and her little friend walked at 11.

Its really hard for me not to compare at birthdays and Christmas and gift giving times however.  We are not wealthy.  We love to give things to our children but we don't/can't get them the Pottery Barn fancy things, we get them a fish.

Madeleine loves her fish.  Really the feeling of inadequacy is only in my head because a 2 year old can't compare yet.  For that I am thankful and I want to take that to heart.

I read somewhere recently that living in the moment is almost impossible.  We are creatures of the future, always thinking about the next step the next thing to do.  Children however are now creatures.  They enjoy what they have now.  I am learning to enjoy the now.  The things that we have that are great and amazing.  That my daughter is not yet old enough to realize the gap and not yet old enough to care.  May she never reach that age!  I am old enough to know better and so to remind myself when I fall into that mindset to 'snap out of it!'

We are giving our daughter everything she needs for a happy and healthy life, that is what I rejoice in and what I have to celebrate this Easter.  He is Risen!  Who needs plastic toys?